More to Life Than What the Eyes Can See – Christos’s Experience

ChristosI attended the Searching Within course of The Gnostic Movement in 2007 at the Greek study center of Athens. Prior to this I had been participating in Gnosticweb’s online forums. I had been presented with the choice to attend either the Astral course or the Searching Within course. At the moment I had been aiming to overcome some harmful habits and change myself to become a better person so the Searching Within course sounded suitable for me.

What had mostly attracted me to the Searching Within course was its statement that it would show me the tools to know myself better, uncover my subconscious drives and change. Comments in the forums by previous course participants were also very motivating. People were saying that the methods of the Searching Within course and the course structure itself were very effective.

On an intellectual level, I was familiar with some of the ideas that I thought would be presented in the course and so I kind of knew what to expect. However, the approach and structure of the lessons taught in the Searching Within course were quite different to anything I had found before.

Simplicity and Practicality

The course was very simple and the information had a greater emphasis on being practical rather than theoretical. The terminology and the way things were explained were comprehensible and easy to follow. I had no difficulty grasping what was being described. Usually the methods were becoming clearer when I applied them during the session or during the day.

The theoretical part of the lecture was usually relatively short. The focus was mainly on giving a context and describing how to apply the methods during the day. I had found this approach very helpful. It was enabling me to better understand how to practice and get results. I had felt I had found a school of self-knowledge. One that helped me delve deep within myself in a very uncomplicated manner, giving me inspiration to apply the methods during my everyday life. Having clear instruction on how to practice was also enabling me to take initiative and improve the way I applied the methods.

I also bought the book The Peace of the Spirit Within from Belsebuub. The course was based on it. Reading the book along with the course helped me understand how to apply the methods better but also get a hint of the role that self-knowledge plays in the process of enlightenment.

Seeing Results

From early on in the course I had started having results. My dreams had started becoming clearer and more orderly. This order helped me remember them better. This enabled me to see and understand the correlation that exists between dreams and my everyday life.

I had also started to understand how my egos were functioning in me. By studying them I started to realize how harmful habits get a grip on me and how they get fed if they are not noticed. Getting to know myself, both my good and my bad side, I was able to know myself deeper and become more conscious of my psychology.

It was quite impressive to me that simple techniques like the ones that were taught early on in the Searching Within course could have a considerable impact in my life. These results were giving me more encouragement to carry on with my practices.

I was always looking forward for the next session in order to find out a new technique and delve even deeper into understanding the workings of my psychology. I started realizing many things about myself. I had realized that I did not need to live with addictions and unwanted habits. They did not need to be part of my life and I was learning how to remove them. Before that I had just accepted them as part of my character and way of being. Because of a lack of understanding, ignorance and confidence I had felt too weak to deal with the harmful aspects of myself.

Applying Belsebuub’s Technique for Self-Observation

Self-observation was one of my favorite techniques that I learned from the Searching Within course. It helped me a lot to face and overcome my egos rather than believe they are inseparable from me. I found it amazing that by observing myself during the day in a mindful, clear and alert state I could acquire a significant amount of information about myself and my ego states while experiencing a certain level serenity. This information sometimes came within a very short period of time. It could be in a discussion with a colleague at work or a relative or a friend. If I remembered to be observing myself during the situations of life I was getting to know myself in ways I had never imagined. I was getting to see my inner states as they arose in the events of life. Seeing them as they emerged from deep within my psychology was helping me understand the way they function and feed.

Learning how to combine awareness and self-observation during the day with the insights I was taking from my dreams was invaluable. The course was giving me the tools I needed and the guidance to use them. It was then up to me how I would apply them. When I was giving it a good go I could feel the difference very quickly. Dreams sometimes would not only give me guidance of the states I needed to study and remove from within myself but also on how to use the methods I was given during the course.

At some point I had a dream that helped me understand self-observation better. I was in a setting where I was watching myself. There was this other person that I knew was me but at the same time it felt different than me. That part of myself I was observing was separate from me and had no power over me. I was in control. That dream helped me understand the separation I needed to have when I was exploring and observing my egos.

This and other dreams I had about my inner states were giving me strong hints that the course I was taking was not only very effective but it also had a lot of depth. The techniques I was practicing were not just helping me change the way I am externally. They were not only helping me to overcome bad habits and personality traits but they were also showing me that there is a different way of being and living; a more spiritual and esoteric one.

Final Thoughts

By applying the methods of the Searching Within course I was able to verify that there is more to life than the eyes can see. I was able to perceive the interactive nature of everyday life with dreams and out-of-body experiences. I had felt that TGM, through teaching me how to search within, was actually teaching me a more esoteric and more spiritual way of living. I think that any person that is seeking for the real purpose of life would have felt at home in TGM. Searching Within was a course that was taught through an esoteric school. The results of practicing the Searching Within course’s techniques provided me proof for this. I was able to verify that I have the ability to study, influence and change myself and my life.

2017-03-25T15:19:51+00:00People's Experiences|6 Comments


  1. Geraldine June 8, 2017 at 10:51 am - Reply

    Hi Christos,
    That was really nice to hear about how helpful the searching within course was for you – like others have said, the point you made about how your dreams changed and became more correlating with your life also felt important to me, and something I also noticed happened to me when I took the course.
    As for getting rid of bad habits and change things you felt were too weak to change just goes to show the power behind the wisdom found in Belsebuub’s Searching Within course.
    At first, I thought these techniques seemed so simple on the surface, yet as I started to implement them into my life, I discovered they could indeed change the way I responded to life’s events, and had a great depth to them. Sure, self-knowledge is not something that is easily gained, yet the rewards are so worth it. It has brought me much more joy into my life, and opened the door to connecting with spirituality, a door that I did not know I could open and discover within me.

  2. Lucia April 27, 2017 at 3:09 pm - Reply

    This was wonderful to read, thank you for sharing Christos. I really liked how you emphasized the esoteric aspect of the Searching Within course. That it was not just another self-help course system, but something deeper, that went beyond this 3-dimensional world and could also be observed in dreams and out of body experiences. Something that helped a person to become more in control, more conscious.
    This makes me think again how important it is to have somebody with awakened consciousness to guide a school of this type. Otherwise, even if partially helpful, the regular courses can not help people to fundamentaly change on a deeper level.

  3. Karim April 24, 2017 at 1:01 pm - Reply

    Good to read a bit about how you started applying the information from the Searching Within course in your life Christos.

    I like how you were able to gauge the effectiveness and its value for yourself by using dreams.

    I find it quite an uplifting thing to read that you were able to take yourself out of bad habits and addictions, where beforehand you had thought it impossible. I mean reading about it is a small thing of course,  but I think so many people are burdened heavily by such things and can’t get themselves out. So that’s a testament to the searching within course material.

    That dream where you were able to feel that quality separation sounds to me like a wonderful moment of insight.

  4. Michael April 8, 2017 at 2:24 pm - Reply

    Thanks for sharing your experience with the Searching Within course Christos. You identified some valuable benefits from studying the course and practicing its techniques, which I also found to be true, particularly the effects of studying the psyche both in dreams and in daily life.

    Like you, I had struggled a lot with addictions and negative habits before finding Belsebuub’s techniques for self-knowledge and thought that these were part of my character. But I found that by applying the information I learnt on Belsebuub’s courses to my daily life, I was able to make significant progress in overcoming inner states that I thought were so deeply ingrained that they would be virtually impossible to shift.

    I feel very glad to have found these practical tools to change how I act and respond to the various situations of life, which I feel is a much better way of living than being hooked by my own subconscious drives.

  5. Fotis March 25, 2017 at 8:37 pm - Reply

    Thank you for sharing Christo your experience from that course.
    Sounds like that this course connected the dots and made a picture that fitted very well to that time of your life. Same as happened to me that course came to the right time and fitted very well into my life.

    I liked also what you said about the self-observation practice. Scientists are using observation a lot through microscopes or not and physiotherapists observe and listen carefully what their patient says and they behavior, in order to make conclusions. I was amazed when after taking this practice I saw I could work as a scientist but on myself.

    All the best with your life!

    • Karim April 24, 2017 at 1:02 pm - Reply

      Nice analogy Fotis, and so true, it does feel like that.

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