The Power of Changing Within – Jordan’s Experience

JordanAfter having been told about and sent the Searching Within course via the downloadable PDFs yet not actually reading them for many months, one day I decided to give it a chance and finally go through it.

I started with week one’s topic, the course outline and introduction. In it, Belsebuub described key concepts that the course would cover that were completely new to me. Many things that I would have readily and quickly dismissed in the past if I had come across them in books or was told about them by others actually made sense for a change due to the very practical, down-to-earth, and simplistic way that Belsebuub managed to explain them. He had a way of describing things that could actually make them quite tangible and relatable to my life, so I could see how the information actually could apply—this was not a fantastical, typical, flowery, dreamy, unworldly way that most tend to write or speak about spiritual things, which was so off-putting to me.

Experiencing the Benefits of Spiritual Exercises

Then came the exercises. With each weekly topic there was also a weekly exercise. Although the course was eight weeks at the time and it was designed such that people could focus upon the exercise for the duration of the week as they went through it, I had been sent the whole course at once by a friend and resolved instead to simply try out the exercise given there and then before moving on to reading the next week’s topic and trying out its exercise, and so on, and so on.

After I read the first topic and tried the exercise, it was so interesting I didn’t stop at one but kept going. In this way, turns out I went through the whole course in that one afternoon! It was a complete about-face for me, as it highlighted different points of view to many of the latent beliefs and ways of thinking I had built up through my life up until that point, which allowed me to question what I was doing and where I was heading. I was very intrigued by the possibilities to change in such a fundamental way, and experience more spiritual ways of living and being, such as lasting peace, real happiness, etc. that I simply couldn’t put it down so-to-speak.

What really had me motivated and most interested was trying out the exercises. It was interesting to consider and then experience observing my ways of thinking, feeling, being, and acting. I hadn’t really paid attention to my thoughts, feelings, movements, etc. before—I just did them. In this way, life would quickly pass me by, and there would be no real opportunity to change the things I didn’t like.

For example, no matter how many activities I scheduled or participated in that I enjoyed doing, inevitably the demands of life required that I’d have to do things that I didn’t enjoy doing, such as chores like washing the dishes, certain aspects of my job at work, taking out the garbage, etc., and while doing those things, I of course wouldn’t feel as good as when doing the things I liked doing. Because Belsebuub explained the fundamental practices of awareness and self-observation however — which would allow me to observe and eventually remove negative inner states and replace them with the spiritual states of the consciousness — I had the opportunity to go through life and reach states of happiness and peace even while engaged in things that while necessary in daily living, would otherwise have brought on more negative states or generally have me feeling a bit down within, wishing I was doing something else instead. For instance, I remember one time feeling completely happy and at peace while simply washing the dishes after dinner through doing the practices from the course! I couldn’t believe such a thing was possible, and so I was very keen to keep putting this into practice as much as I could moving forward.

Peaceful Walks in Nature

Although I would go on to take Belsebuub’s other courses, these fundamental practices, along with the other exercises given in the course, became a big part of my life and the material in this course would be something I would consistently return to. I thoroughly enjoyed practising awareness and self-observation in nature in particular. While on walks and hikes in the past I’d find it somewhat boring. Now armed with these practices however, sometimes I could truly experience the beauty, calm, and stillness of nature, while at the same time, learn something new about myself by watching the sorts of thoughts, observations, and feelings I would have as they arose in the moment.

Applying Self-Knowledge in My Daily Life

The experiences I gained on these walks then translated quite well into my daily life in the city, which really allowed me to approach things in a new way. For example, there was this one co-worker that had always treated me quite badly, being generally mean, dismissive of anything I had to say, and making things altogether unpleasant at work. It was so obvious that some of my other co-workers would even sometimes take me aside and openly wonder why this person was treating me so badly.

Once I had the information from the Searching Within course however and put it into practice, rather than focus on feeling myself as a victim, being defensive, internally criticizing that person for mistreating me, and so on, I simply went about my days at work and watched closely for these sorts of thoughts, emotions, and feelings when interacting with that person. I also combined this with the elimination of the egos technique, a technique taught in another of Belsebuub’s courses, but the foundation for which I had learned in the Searching Within course and its supplementary readings. So instead of going along with the negative thoughts, emotions, and feelings, I tried as best I could to observe them from a detached point of view, eliminate them, and return to the present moment, doing what needed to be done physically and carry on simply treating that person normally as I would treat anyone else.

This was very much in contrast to my old approach, which was to avoid that person whenever possible, and to carry on thinking negative thoughts about how they were treating me and their behaviour in general, worrying about the situation, always trying to figure out how to avoid them or not offend them, and so on. Strangely enough, I discovered that although this person was being mean to me physically for seemingly no reason, I hadn’t exactly been an angel to them in return internally! I realized that although I couldn’t change that person, what I did have the potential to change were my own thoughts and feelings towards them.

A Surprising Change

Much to my surprise, after a few weeks of using what I’d learned from Belsebuub to respond in the best way I could to the situation, all of a sudden one day that person started being nice to me, seemingly out of nowhere. They even spoke well of me and my work to others. This previously bad situation which had caused much unpleasantness at work and even had me considering transferring locations had passed not by me running away from it, not facing it, or trying to change things physically, but rather, through practising the very inner work that Belsebuub had described in the course.

All-in-all, the potential to change within that the course explored really resonated with me, because I could clearly see that no matter what I did to arrange things in life, or how successful I could become, inevitably I would have to do things I didn’t like doing, or difficult events and circumstances of life would come up repeatedly that would put me into bad states. So I could see how working upon changing within would have a greater effect upon me and my life circumstances than solely working on changing things externally.

The information in this course gave me a potential to change my life in ways that nothing else could, and that’s why it became so important to me.

~ Jordan Belikov

2018-12-03T06:43:16+00:00People's Experiences|4 Comments

4 Comments

  1. Michael April 7, 2017 at 1:47 pm - Reply

    Thanks for sharing your story Jordan. I can really relate to what you said about being put off by the flowery fantasy world that some spiritual writers tend to drift into. Because I found this wishy washy approach so prevalent, particularly in modern spirituality, it had the effect of putting me off getting involved in spirituality for many years, as a lot of what I came across seemed to be almost solely based on belief.

    That’s why it came as such a breath of fresh air to find Belsebuub’s work, as he had such a different style to many of the other spiritual teachers I’d encountered. In fact, his ordinariness is what stood out – he seemed so ordinary that it was extraordinary! 🙂

    However, I soon realised that beneath the down-to-earth and pragmatic approach, there was a huge treasure trove of knowledge, which I could apply in a consistent way to my life, in order to overcome some of the stumbling blocks that had affected me for many years.

    Although I didn’t complete the course in one sitting, like you did, I found The Peace of the Spirit Within, which accompanied the course at the time, to be a real “page turner!” I think I was just so glad to have found something that answered many of the questions I’d been asking for years, but which was understandable, practical and based in common sense.

    I can also relate to what you mentioned about chores becoming much more enjoyable. Washing the dishes was also a chore that I used to dread, but with practicing awareness, it even became an enjoyable task. Likewise, I found my perception of nature became far more heightened, so that going for a simple walk could become an uplifting experience.

    But the part you mentioned about improving difficult relationships has probably been one of the most significant finds for me. As you mentioned, it’s amazing how quickly a tense situation can be diffused by simply changing our own response to others.

  2. Karim March 9, 2017 at 9:18 pm - Reply

    “I was very intrigued by the possibilities to change in such a fundamental way.”

    Thanks for sharing your encounter with this course back then and how you started applying it in your very life.

    I can relate to some of the things you mention that matched my experience with coming across the Searching Within material by Belsebuub. Such as being able to connect to nature, knowing how to detach from inner unpleasant states and enjoying doing the dishes (that took another few years for me actually :P)

    I remember also being put off by many of the ‘flowery’ yet empty spirituality I’d seen before, which seemed to say nothing but circling around the fact that they actually didn’t have the real thing. Whereas I found the complete opposite with Belsebuub’s work and his Searching Within course. His writing so simple, yet it immediately rang true for me. Some parts even seemed so obviously true, the most normal thing in the world (apart from the fact that humanity at large is not aware of that information.) Yet there was also at the same time a great depth to his words and wisdom, multiple layers. When I started applying the techniques given it became even more apparent how much depth his writing and instructions have. When applied it can change one’s life totally for the better.

    It’s really cool to see this material becoming available again 😀 in this way, just as it when it was first released back in 2001.

  3. Lucia March 6, 2017 at 11:46 am - Reply

    What a nice testimony, thank you Jordan for sharing! I really liked what you mentioned about the inevitability of ‘bad events” on our lives, and how futile it is to try to run away from them or being negative about them.
    I also found this particular course to be very revealing and even magical, because it gave people power to change circumstances not by pushing something externally, but by quiet internal work which may have been invisible at first, but eventually had the power to turn everything around, just like what you related about the situation with your co-worker.

    By the way, I really had to smile when reading the beginning of your story, about you keeping the pdfs on your computer for many months without actually reading them. 😀 I know of many people (including myself) that literally could not wait for the new pdfs being released at that time, so popular that course was! And here you go, storing them safely on your computer for months before actually checking them! But it looks like later on you made up for all that hesitation… 😉

    • Jordan March 14, 2017 at 4:38 am - Reply

      Yes – if I had actually read it when first sent, I definitely would’ve been one of those people eagerly awaiting each new week’s release!

Leave A Comment

Do NOT follow this link or you will be banned from the site!
error: