Spiritual Experiences in Childhood
Growing up, I had some very interesting experiences that for a long time I could not understand.
I remember one time experiencing being very conscious while playing a game with my friends and having a clarity about my perception of watching my friends running around playing, things seemed to occur in slow motion, where I really felt that moment in a much deeper sense as if it was in high definition as I observed the game we were playing.
In my late teens an interesting event occurred where I naturally astral projected. It was a short experience but it was intriguing stuff that seemed very mystical and magical; it inspired me greatly to look for a deeper meaning to life.
I also had very lucid dreams in the astral around the time of the astral projection where I met people and saw some amazing things.
I didn’t know what these experiences were back then but those later lucid astral experiences were very inspiring and filled me full of wonder.
Developing an Interest in Spirituality
Before that I also remember my elder brother and especially his fiancée talking about spirituality, love and even that there was a universal language! I remember saying to myself what are they talking about, what is spirituality?
And ever since my late teens I had a curiosity about spirituality that didn’t go away but seemed to increase as I went into my early twenties.
During that time, I also got more interested in music and this influence exposed me to some really basic concepts of spirituality which were portrayed to certain degrees by some artists that I came across which came from the famous late 60s and 70s eras of music.
It made me wonder where were these thoughts and ideas about spirituality coming from? As this interest grew I seemed to always be talking and trying to strike up conversations about spirituality whenever I could.
Taking Steps to Learn About Spirituality
I started to go to local spiritual fares, read books and seemed to meet people along the way that were interested in spirituality as well, things just seemed to progress along in a very natural way somehow, but it was really just all talk, ideas and big concepts at the time.
In regards to my past astral experiences, I found explanations from people I met and knew to be a bit vague, and while it all seemed very interesting and I didn’t even know what I was after myself really, the information available to me seemed a bit confusing, I even tried making up my own practices which later I realized were like the concentration on the heartbeats practice Belsebuub wrote about.
As an adult, other basic supernatural experiences happened to me that I didn’t even know why or how they happened.
For example, I did not have caller ID on my phone yet there were times I just knew who was on the other end of the phone before they even spoke. I remember my workmate saying “how did you know it was me?” and I said “I don’t know how, I just knew!”
These experiences didn’t happen all the time, but were infrequent and haphazard.
I finally found my way to an esoteric school and I took courses about self-knowledge and I was lucky enough to have it explained in person by Belsebuub.
Finally Finding Answers About Spirituality
The self-knowledge information that I got from the course I took and the guidance from Belsebuub helped me to not only understand those early experiences that I had, but also why they happened and what I could do to have more of those experiences.
I started to learn many new things that I hadn’t come across before, like consciousness and how to activate it with awareness in the present moment, what the consciousness is and how to increase it and its faculties like intuition and telepathy, for example.
I started to learn about dreams and their important meanings and when I struggled with remembering dreams, I used a mantra to remember them that was also mentioned in the course.
I started to learn and see parts of my subconscious that in the course were called egos (anger, greed, hatred and so forth), and I learnt how these egos are the opposite of being spiritual (love, inner peace, compassion, etc.).
I learned about how the egos are the cause of why energetically I’m not a spiritual person and how there is a whole process to becoming a spiritual person, even though at the time I had thought of myself a spiritual person simply because of my longtime intellectual interests in the spiritual.
I learnt that there is more to acting spiritually than just thinking I’m spiritual and that I needed to do certain things to become more spiritual, to develop the consciousness and grow spiritually.
Putting into Practice All That I Was Learning
And with the new information I was learning, over time a clearer picture of spirituality started to appear to me that made sense, that had a reason behind it and was based on evidence that I could look into myself with the tools and techniques that the course gave to me.
I started to see the benefits of using consciousness in my daily work activities.
On a couple of occasions, I experienced what it was like to work while being aware in the present moment, and found that I was able to overcome my slow and rigid ways and instead was able to understand instantly what to do and then I went and did that work so much quicker than I normally did it, it was like a different me!
The amazing thing about using awareness and activating consciousness to me is the ability to understand something instantly and not be clouded by unwanted emotions or unwanted thoughts.
From Life-Changing Skills to Gaining a Purpose in Life
The self-knowledge information from the course helped me to understand topics that I had come across before, like for example concerning self-observation, but what was different was that Belsebuub could explain how to do it much more clearly, so I could easily understand what to do so I could observe my inner egos instead of getting lost in complicated explanations.
And from the observation of the egos within, I started to see how I reacted to events in my life and saw some of the egos that are very strong within me which make up and influence the way I do things and are the cause of why I do some of the things I do and have done in the past.
It has helped me to understand that there is a process to spirituality that anyone can follow, that each person has spiritual aspects to their own Being, that other dimensions do exist and how to experience these other dimensions.
The course helped me to understand how to work towards starting the internal spiritual path by learning to understand oneself and much more, but the thing that stands out to me is that trying the simple techniques of awareness of the present moment and self-observation has led to amazing experiences that had the power to change the way I perceive life and tapped into an understanding that is so much deeper than what I can assess through the mind alone.
And finally, it helped me to understand that self-knowledge is a way to unlock a very special potential that is contained within each person, and it is only a matter of learning the techniques of how to tap into that hidden potential within ourselves to access that untapped potential which the information from Belsebuub shows you how to do very clearly and easily. And what an amazing and priceless gift this has been: it has given me answers to my spiritual questions and given a deeper meaning to my life.
~ Steve F
Hi Everyone,
Thanks for the replies, I’ve been late to reply to everyone, so my apologies for the delay but I sincerely wish everyone all the best for their journey as well!
Nice to read your journey Steve before and after this course. I remember and I can relate feeling a relief when putting every piece into their place after this course. People who are looking to spirituality from the scratch must be very hard passing from all those types of information around it. It’s really chaotic and must be hard for someone or need to be “lucky” to find genius information and more important the practical and how to apply them into their daily life effectively.
I feel lucky, whatever that means from the esoteric point of view, that I found this course as well.
All the best with your rest of your journey, Steve and everyone!
Hi Steve,
I can relate to your ‘journey’! I also experienced childhood like this naturally magical time, and then was drawn to spiritual-conversations, people, events as I entered my twenties. But also like you, I felt like there was a lot of grandiose talking but not much practical anything, or people who could really inspire me by living in a genuinely spiritual way. I guess I was well versed in the standard spiritual lingo and literature of the day to recognise that the Searching Within course was something different. Finally it brought the whole question of enlightenment right into focus, into something everyday, something that I could start working towards now through making changes in myself.
All the best with Searching Within!
I like what you say about that the consciousness or real us being able to understand things instantly. So much better than… ?having external situations cause chaos within with our dualistic ego states trying to convince us (because of their own goals really) what is right.
I find it great to read that you kept your spiritual search up and going until you found the ‘real deal’.
Thanks for that inspiring reminder that everyone has this amazing inner potential :-)
Thanks for sharing that Steve. I can relate to the situation you described of searching for spirituality, but not really knowing where to look. I can also relate to being drawn to the more spiritual and introspective nature of some late ‘60’s and ‘70’s music, which is one of my favourite eras too! :) Looking back, it’s funny to see how some of the music I was drawn to has fairly spiritual undertones, even though I wasn’t consciously aware of why I liked that particular music at the time.
Like you mentioned, I found that Belsebuub’s work drew together many threads that I’d previously been following, but which somehow didn’t seem to connect together. I found the study of dreams to be a big part of inner change and although I’d read about various dream interpretations in conventional psychology, understanding dreams didn’t really become a major part of my life until I found Belsebuub’s courses.
As well as unifying and clarifying some of the concepts I was already familiar with, I found that Belsebuub’s courses expanded upon these concepts in far greater depth than I’d found anywhere else, as well as giving me new information, which I’d previously never heard of.
It’s great to hear that finding out about Belsebuub’s work gave you a similar clarity in understanding how to bring about inner change.
Thank you Steve for sharing about your specific circumstances in life that lead you to the Belsebuub’s courses. I find it amazing how you had that genuine attraction towards spiritual since your childhood and that it didn’t even stop during your teens or early twenties, when usually people get absorbed by living a social life, often start drinking or partying.
Like you, I also had some spontaneous lucid experiences in my teens, but later on got carried on by life and its various turns, only re-discovering this connection again in my thirties.
I also liked the way you describe being in awareness and acting through consciousness as an ability to understand a situation instantly and act appropriately, without unwanted emotions or thoughts.
Wishing you a lot of strength to keep going on the journey of self-discovery.